Yo I do not kno wat I am feeling rite now but its weird. Its like fuckin 4:00

am n im up..i dont gotta go 2 skoo cuz i have a doctors appointment 2marro,

but that sux A$$ cuz I wanted 2 see my cutie cuz hez in my spanish class 4

my new marking period. Omg he mad fine yo, n'd he asked me if I needed a

workbook lyke he did'nt look mad fine askin 4 it... :::sigh::: i gotta bag him up,

thas like my goal. Hes mad perfect, in my eyes, he basically has everything

that I look 4 in a guy..but ima get off that homo ish bcuz im depressed 4 sum

reason...y tha hell am i depressed all tha time....its not even like full fledged

depresssed its jus like...ew, i dunno im wildin out....I jus am mad stressed 4

no reason tho. i dont hav anybody that im reely crushin on cept 4 my dime

(rob) but if shyt dosent work out wit him im not gonna hav nobody worth

crushin on bcuz theres no hope 4 me wit a dude frum ny, n CT iz so damn

weak. And its funni too cuz rite wen I dont hav a nigga, thas wen mommi n

dreds wanna giv me a "get dick 4 free card" Sumthin happened wit my cuzzo

 ang (hey moose bitch, keep ya head up) this week n it triggered tha whole

"sex" convo. n they're like "well if u wanna hav sex we cant stop u. jus tell us

 who tha guy is & it haz 2 b in this house. We dont want u in a hotel or

staircase." I'm like "huh?" :::pinches self::: that shyt is bananas. So not only can

I hav sex...but it can b in my own bed, WITH them knowing n not givin a

fuck?. DING DING DING! JACKPOT! ::::cabbage patches::: ::::toe-wops:::

Shoot, if rob becomes my man I guarantee hes gonna b steppin his pipe game

up lol...na im wildin, im a punk, i prolly wouldnt let him beat newayz but its

tha principle MAAANNN!!!!!!!!!...so yea, thas crazy rite there. Now Im jus

unessecarily turned on by the mere fact that I can basically lose my virginity

(such a sacred word lol) weneva I want to...But I doubt itz gonna b

soon....Hmmm.....I am so bored/horny that im watching cinemax, white ppl

porn..shame on me....wtf yo, these niccas r sittin here on a boat eatin ice

cream...tha fuck?!!!! Fuck already!!!! JESUS CHRIST!! I aint with the

whole storyline thing, it irks my nerves to the fullest extent. Isnt the pont of

these movies to show SEX!! n'd 2 make it worst, they dont even show the

dick, all i see is this white bishes titi's ass. tha fuck, im a GIRL, tha fuck

would i wanna see this bishes titi's n ass for!!!!!!!????????  Sorri but

I'm feeling weird & im upset. Plus im a scorpio so im horny, and what?! sue

me bitches ....But uhh, I think I'll go 2 bed now, the bad pornography is

upsetting lay lay .

Wat upp pplz. this week I finally went 2 skoo (yes applaud me my people)

n it waz coo. Now I hav a full blown infatuation ova that dude frum ma

skoo...hez a dime n he look mad fine 4 no reason. He even looked fine

studying 4 hiz finals!! :::sigh:::: dime.....So yea, I got tha scoop on him n

that spanish chick, they dont go out but I dunno if they mess or talk so

yea...hopefully they dont so I can throw myself in tha picture .

uhhh wat else...my hair iz jet black now...it looks so prettiful...lol... I like it

a lot, it makes me look more defined......Im jus here @ elliots house...we

wildin out, havin mad fun n eatin (which iz my fav. thing 2 do) N we bout 2

go see coach carter wenever this asshole moose gets dressed.

So thas about it ppl, wun hunnit!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Guyz. So i've ben temporarily kicked out of my skool lol. I have'nt gone

one day this week. But I actually DID wanna go 2 skool 2 see my cutie, n

2marro iz a dress down too so I kno he waz gonna b lookin mad fine 4 no

reason . Y tha hell do I like him so much over the course of a week where

I have'nt even ben seeing him. I neva even thought he existed be4. mabe it

waz cuz I waz crushin ova that otha dude...who knoz..

So Newayz I'm jus here chillin at home, I guess I'm not goin 2 n.y this

weekend cuz kitty n mommy aint talkin so thas outta tha ques. I relly wanted

2 go tho. i need sum black henna 4 my hair, I need 2 get my pix developed 4

cheap @ nat. wholesale liquidators lol, n I also need sum more of my favorite

dollar earrings that broke. Yep, goods that can only b found in tha hood.

Well im bored, i think I'll go write poetry now..........

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!! Yo, me n ang had us a hype ass new year

weekend, lemme tell ya'll. Me n this bitch got into so much shit lol. New

years eve we went 2 Kwame's house n had mad fun. It waz his whole family

(a.k.a my whole family) there n we were wildin out, walkin all over tha place,

drinkin...it waz jus mad fun. Then me n ang were outtie cuz we waz tryna find

anotha party in bk 2 go 2.

So tha fam walked us 2 tha train station or w/e n  we got on. Then wen we

transferred 2 tha 5 train it waz so funny. Tha ILLLLL O.D drunk dude came

on wit hiz dime friend wit hiz bottle of liquor screamin happy new years n

dancin jamaican, talkin wreckless. Me n Ang waz jus laughin our asses off.

So Angies like, Lay Lay dont look, but u kno I did anyway, n this tipsy fool iz

here smilin at me, pointin tha bottle of alcohol at me. SO I jus turn around

laughin mad hard n tha nigga comes ova...So he tryna spit hiz lil drunken

game 2 me, n then 2 angie. Then he like, "here, hold this" & drops tha damn

bottle in my lap!!!! LMAO. So This dude goes ova 2 hiz friend n comes bak

2 retrive his liquor or w/e n finally hiz ass got off, so me n ang dyin off that.

Den we got off n this bitch take me into a deathtrap part of brooklyn where

we heard gunshots poppin off n had 2 jump into a dollar van (which I ain kno

wa tha hell that waz). So we get outta that & den we @ tha bustop but it waz

lyke 3:20 n tha nex bus ain come untill 4 so we like, fuk outta here, our asses

iz walkin. So we walkin, yup more gunshots, run 4 a lil bit, n finally get home

@ about 5. yep, crazy ass new yrs eve, but it waz off tha chain.

Now new years day. Angie's loud ass mouth got us into trouble so mommy

sed we couldnt go out that nite. Now of course angie haz a plan (u alredy

kno), n it waz 2 sneak out lata that nite wit this nigga she talk 2, cuz hiz mans

had a free crib. So yup, we shower, gear up, n call this dude round 2. We

crept our lil asses outside while our cuzzo jackie waz on tha lookout n tha

dudes met us out dere. So we got @ tha crib n were chillin n then this nigga

jump outta nowhere, all up in our asses like a thong. He obviously wanted 2

pipe lol. He waz kinda funny actually. So um yea, Angie n him :::ahem:::

disappeared 4 a moment, n I waz jus chillin wit his manz outside who tried 2

tempt me by takin a shower n comin out wit nuthin but a towel

on....lmao...yea...niggaz these dayz. But uh, he gav me hiz numba cuz he a

cool dude. We actually had CONVERSATION w/o him tryna make a

move...well at least 4 awhile lol. N we waz jus basically chillin n listenin 2

my i pod, while angie umm...yea.....

So, that waz my crazy ass weekend in tha bk wit my crazy ass cuzin. Lay Layz outtie 4 tha nite people....

~buh bye shitheadz .............

Hey, i've been in another planet 4 maaad long lol. Umm summary 4 u guyz..

Well... jeff turned out 2 b a dud who stopped calling me bcuz he had 2 leave

like 15 mins. afta we met up and I didnt cry a river over his dumass. Me &

my cuzins jus proceeded 2 shop our asses off n I guess he waz tight about

that. W/e he can blow me 4 all I care. Dese niggaz act like tha world suppose

2 revolve around dem, cocky assholes :::sigh:::

Newayz so yea, im w/o a man as of now, waz talkin 2 ty, den angies beau

brandon waz tryna talk 2 me. But of course i waznt tryin 2 talk 2 him cuz thas

angies dude. N he wanted me 2 call him n I didnt. So yea, shit iz complicated

& weird n all niggaz need 2 die.

Ummm I got my eye on a few guyz frum ma skool now, but its one especially.

This dude :::::sighs:::: he iz so cuuuute. OMG OMG OMG. Wit hiz lil gapped

smile and brolicness. Whoooo he look good....lol. Plus he in honors too.

YEsssirrrr im tryna bag THAT. So wen we go bak 2 skool ima get my gurl

K, (what up b?!!!) 2 talk 2 him 4 me n see wat tha deal iz. Only thing iz , I get

so fuckin jealous (im such a scorpio) cuz I alwayz see him hugged up on some

puerto rican bitches, one especially. That bitch be all up in hiz ass like a

thong!!! He jus b like wateva. SO yea, I gotta throw that bitch out tha picture

1st. THEN, I can bag my guy.  He He, Im so evil....

SO blah blah blah, im waiting 4 angelinas slow ass 2 get out tha shower so I

can get my brows done, buy some cute underwears, n we can go!!!! Its new

yrs eve 4 christ sakes, I wanna shake my ass, i wanna do sumthin lol. We're

goin 2 kwames house & dont kno our plan frum there...yea we're slow like

that. Sooo yup, I updated u headz so get of my dick ..lataz